“Can’t I Just Be a Muggle?!?”

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cant_I_just_be_a_muggleI’ve written before about the ups and downs of being an empath, and about how being extraordinarily energetically sensitive comes with a wide range of feelings and emotions.

I keep reminding myself that I am “exquisitely sensitive,” and that difference does not equal something “bad”. Of course, on days like today, when I find myself crying at the drop of a hat (almost from the moment I woke up), my sensitivity does not seem so exquisite or like a gift. Which is why I found myself crying to my therapist this morning:

I want to be normal, for once in my life. Can’t I just be a Muggle?!?

(For those who are not aware, a Muggle is a term from the Harry Potter series, meaning a non-wizard or non-magical person.)

I said it in a joking way, of course, and we had a good laugh about it. But in that joke, there was part of me that was somewhat serious. Even since I was a child, I’ve always felt “different” – although the reasons for my feeling different have . . . uhh . . . differed, over time. 😉 And the truth is, I never really liked feeling different; I always viewed it as a sort of curse, like something was wrong with me. So of course, that idea has arisen repeatedly in therapy, and is something I’m working on accepting about myself.

Ultimately, I do recognize my sensitivity as a gift and actually like being a non-Muggle. But sometimes it’s nice to dream . . . even if it’s in Harry Potter terms. 😉

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  • Lin

    “Let the river run, let all the DREAMERS wake the nation. Come, the new Jerusalem.” –Carly Simon/Let the River Run/Lyrics

    “A DREAMER is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his reward is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.” –Oscar Wilde/on “being different”.

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